I wish I could go back to my first year in college and apologise to my first real boyfriend.
I thought about him today and I realised for the first time how good I had it back then.
This person loved me truly,deeply,unconditionally but I was much too young to appreciate it.
Now that I’m all grown up and back on the dating scene,I find myself reminiscing about that time of my life.
I find myself comparing every man I date to him and somehow they all fall short.
I know I shouldn’t compare them but its inevitable.
I should be grateful to him.
He taught me what a good relationship is.
He taught me how a man treats a woman he actually loves.
I was just too young,too stupid,too immature,too childish to appreciate it.
I wish I could apologise to him today.
I wish I could say I finally get it.
I wish I could say thank you to him.
But mostly,I wish I could just tell him how truly sorry I am for everything I did back then.
I wish I could take it all back because he didn’t deserve it.
I hope he’s happy wherever he is.
He deserves happiness.